Lots of whining

Yesterday my sister had a job interview. She recently left her husband, and he burned all of her possessions, so she had to go get her social security card, driver’s license, birth certificate, etc. before her interview. That required driving all over hell and back, and Andrew and I went with her.

I had planned on going home before she went to Scottsboro for her interview, but they didn’t have time to take me. I had to call my stepdad to get the kids off the bus for me. I told him to take them to their dad’s house and I would pick them up when I got back. They were supposed to go to his house anyway, but Arien didn’t want to so I told her to come on home. When I told my stepdad that, he started bitching about how I let the kids do whatever they want to and that sometimes I’m going to have to make them do things they don’t want to. And that pissed me off.

When I got off the phone, Andrew started bitching about how it was mean to make them go to their dad’s house. He, of course, hates their dad and doesn’t ever want them to go there. But that just pissed me off even more and inspired this plurk.

I was in a bad mood for the rest of the day. When my stepdad got the kids off the bus, he called me and said “They don’t want to go to their dad’s house, so I’m going to take them home with me.” So much for making them do things they don’t want to do. I just can’t win.

I was planning on whining a little more about other things, but I can’t think straight at the moment. My sister is sitting in here with me talking about myspace, and I know she’s just dying for me to get off the computer so she can flirt with some guys. So, I’m going to go make myself useful and clean something.

Mostly Pictures

I really want to start blogging more. I’ve been wanting to post for a few days, but my sister has been monopolizing the computer for the last week. I haven’t spent much time on here at all. Andrew has been here all weekend, too, and I’ve been spending some quality time with him and the kids. I’m about to go take a walk before it gets dark, but I’m going to post some pics from the past few days first.

totally forgotten

You know, I actually did finish my Binary Cable Hat. It’s been about 3 weeks, but I totally forgot to post it.

Here’s a link to it’s Ravelry page.

It’s a little smaller than I needed for it to be, so I can’t wear it. It’ll probably work for Gracie, though. I started another hat as soon as I finished. It’s the One Day Beret, but it’s definitely taking more than one day. I’m knitting it with Colinette Jitterbug on size 3 needles, and I’m not making much progress. I will finish eventually, though. Then I have yet another hat in the works. This next one will be for Andrew, too, but maybe he’ll actually wear it.

what a day

Last night while we were all sitting around the house, we heard a bunch of sirens go in the direction of our neighboring town (we live right at the city limits/ state line). A few minutes later, they started coming back this way. That’s strange because if something happens in Bridgeport, which is in Alabama, they are usually taken to the hospital in Scottsboro. Right after that, we heard a helicopter. I was sure that it was just flying past to turn and land at the Armory like it normally does. I was wrong. It landed in the parking lot of the old Kmart right in front of my apartment complex.

I hadn’t heard from Andrew all day, and I was so afraid it was him. I don’t know what I would’ve done if it had been. I don’t think I could live without him. I was just about to call his Granny when I saw that he had signed on to Myspace. Talk about relief! I didn’t think much more about the apparent accident after that.

This morning when I signed into Myspace, I noticed one of my friends’ status updates said “Hoping N— will make a full recovery.” Now, N is the guy my sister just broke up with so she could get back together with her baby’s father. My dad usually knows everything that goes on around here, so I called him to see what was up.

He told me that N had been drinking all weekend and had a bad car accident not far from my house last night. The sirens and helicopter were for him. He’s in critical condition and they don’t know if he’s going to make it. And to make matters worse, everyone is blaming his accident on my sister. If she hadn’t dumped him, he’d still be okay. That is totally unfair. He’s a grown man, and should’ve known better than to be drinking and driving, no matter how bad he’s been hurt. I feel almost as sorry for my sister as I do for his family. I can only imagine what’s going through her head right now.

And all of that makes everything that happened to me seem like it doesn’t matter at all. It wasn’t much of anything at all, really. I just had a seizure. That’s pretty normal for me, though. I bit my tongue worse than I ever have, and it’s swollen pretty badly. I can’t talk right, and it’s making it hard to breathe, but I’ll be okay.

I finally made an appointment to see my doctor so I can get a referral to a neurologist and get some meds. I go Friday at 3:40 pm. Hopefully I can get this under control so I can go back to work. I’m so tired of sitting here.

And now I’m going to sit around and watch tv until Andrew gets here. I hope it’s soon. I haven’t seen him since Sunday, and I want to hold him so badly.

Something New

I started a new project Monday night. Yeah, I probably shouldn’t have since I have a whole closet full of unfinished things. I just really wanted to knit a hat, though, so I started abinary cable hat. I’m a little over half done, and I think it’s turning out nicely.

I may finish it tonight, but then again, maybe not. I haven’t had any caffeine in 3 whole days. That’s a lifetime for me. But the real kicker is that I haven’t had a cigarette since 7:00 last night. That’s over 17 hours. I haven’t went this long without smoking in years. It’s driving me crazy, and I’m about to walk to my stepdad’s house to get me some of one or the other. Preferably a cigarette. There’s no telling how long I’ll be gone, but maybe I’ll fell a lot better when I get back!

It’s October…again

Last October was possibly the worst month of my life. I wrecked my car on the 3rd. I had a seizure while I was driving and hit a tree. The kids were with me, and it broke Gracie’s nose. Thankfully, that was the only serious injury. I was put on probation for reckless endangerment because I shouldn’t have been driving, and I’ll probably never be able to drive again. Even if they allow me to get a license, I don’t think I will. I’m afraid that I’ll kill someone if I ever get behind the wheel again.

Exactly a week after my accident, on the 10th, Gracie had one of her own. She was riding her bicycle in the church parking lot next door to my cousin’s house when a little boy ran across her path. She swerved to avoid him and ended up falling over. Everything seemed fine right then, but about 30 minutes later she started seizing. We called 911, and the paramedics took one look at her and said “helicopter”. She was airlifted to T.C. Thompson Children’s Hospital. She spent 3 days in the hospital with a fractured skull, but she made a full recovery. I, on the other hand, have never been so scared in my life.

The rest of the month wasn’t quite as bad, but it still sucked. I just hope that this year won’t be a repeat of last year. It’s going good so far, but it’s only the 2nd. Maybe I should just lock myself in the closet until next month. Yeah, right.

Back Again

So, I’ve come to the end of another long absence from the blog. This seems to happen a lot, doesn’t it? I couldn’t afford an internet connection for a while, but now I can. Yay! You just don’t know how much I’ve missed being online.

Quite a bit has happened since my last entry. I quit my job at Taco Bell, and am now a stay-at-home mom to my girls. I miss working, though, and am seriously considering finding another job. Even if it’s part time, we could use the extra money I would bring in.

I got rid of the roommate from hell, too. I need to explain that in it’s own post, though. It’s a long story.

That’s all for now. It’s almost time for the girls to come home and I need to wash up these few dishes so I can cook supper and have to wash them all over again. I think I’m going to make breakfast pizza. I have a craving for sausage, biscuits, and gravy, but I want to be a little more creative than that.