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Moving on

First of all, I know I sounded like a stupid little girl in that last post. I should probably delete it, but I’m not going to. I want to leave it there because it’s how I really feel, not some manufactured me that I usually pretend to be when I post. I’m going to try to be more “me” on this blog from now on.

Now, back to the original purpose of this post. I’ve bought another domain. I wasn’t going to, but I miss having my own site, so I couldn’t resist. I haven’t had time to do anything with it yet, but I’m going to start on that in the morning. So, in the near future I’m going to be blogging at Yay!

I would like to start working on it tonight, but I’m just too tired. We’ve been out running around since Andrew got back from cleaning out his car. We mostly drove around looking for old cemeteries to explore. Most people might think we’re strange for doing that, but we enjoy it. But I’m beat, and I’m heading off to bed. Goodnight!


I want to write

I really, really want to write, but sometimes I just don’t know what to say. Right now, I’m just typing the first thing that pops into my head. That could make for a very confusing post, but oh well. There are just things in my head that need to come out. I’ll probably feel much better once I’m done. At least I hope so.

Andrew is in a pissy mood right now. I don’t have a clue as to what’s wrong with him. He won’t talk to me. He was fine earlier. We were cleaning the house together – I was cleaning the kitchen and he was cleaning the living room. He even hung a few pictures. Then, his granny came over and brought us some things she’d picked up for us at Wal-Mart. After that, he was still fine. I made the kids get in the tub, and by the time they got out he was in a crappy mood.

He scolded Gracie for moving the keyboard. He almost never gets onto the kids for anything, and I think he hurt her feelings. Arien is usually stuck up his ass, but even she could tell that something was wrong, and she stayed away from him. He kept going outside and walking around for a few minutes, then coming back in and hiding out in the bathroom, then going back out. Everytime he would go out, Arien would watch him out the window. She’s afraid he’s going to leave and never come back. She started crying once when she couldn’t see him anymore.

He’s finally staying inside for the time being. He told me that he has a headache, but he wouldn’t take the Excedrine that I tried to give him. I really hate it when he gets like this. I was in an unusually good mood (for me, anyway) until he started acting this way. I don’t know why his moods affect me so strongly. It kills me to see him feeling this way, but I just don’t know what to do about it. I wish he would just talk to me. If the two of us could just sit down and talk about a few of our issues, life would be so much better.

It’s not like things haven’t been going great between us lately, though. We’ve been trying to get pregnant since late October, and although we haven’t been successful yet, I have a feeling that we will be soon. Besides, making babies is fun. We’re going to be moving to a new town within the next few weeks, and we’ve been spending a lot of time planning that. We’re both excited about it, and the kids are too. It’s starting to feel like we’re a real, complete family. I’ve never felt that way before, not even with the girls’ dad. I love it, and I love Andrew. I just want him to feel better.

Yarn? Check.

Pattern? Not so much.

I’ve decided on this Regia Canadian Color #4731 (Quebec) for my sock pal. (Click here for swatch.)
I just have no clue as to what pattern to use – it was hard enough to choose the yarn! For a while there I was leaning toward the Rib & Cable socks from the Fall 2005 IK, which I may still do, but there are so many other patterns I like too. Somebody help me choose, please!

Here are some others:

These aren’t my only options, and any pattern suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I can’t wait to start working on these socks!

I got it back!

Well, I got my job back, and I didn’t even ask for it. When the GM came in, she called me and asked what was going on, and I told her, and she practically begged me not to quit. All that from the woman who said she’d never beg anybody to stay. She even offered to give me a little time off if I needed it. I actually do need it, but I can’t afford it right now. I have a vacation coming in February, I’ll just have to make it until then.

I’ve been having a lot of meltdowns lately. A LOT. Even the smallest thing causes me to get all hysterical, and I don’t know why. I cry all the time, and I don’t even want to leave the house anymore. That’s just not me – I’ve always loved to run the roads, even if I didn’t have anywhere to go. I’m going to make an appointment with a doctor tomorrow to find out what’s wrong with me. I’ve got to do something about this. I just want to be normal again.

It’s a Girl!

Arien Elisabeth Turner arrived on January 8 at 1:38 pm. She weighed 6lbs 5oz and was
19 3/4 inches long. We had some issues during labor with her heart rate dropping. It would
go really low (in the 80s) with every contraction. It turned out that she had the cord
wrapped once around her neck and once around her body. Other than that, she was
perfectly healthy. Her apgar scores were 9 and 9.

We came home yesterday, and we’re both
doing fine. You can see a picture of her here.
It’s so good to be home!